Time To Reflect.
In 2006, I gained a more understanding and forgiveful mind. I realized that there are some things that I can’t change or control but life will go on; and I guess if it doesn’t kill you, it will at least make you more prepared for the next time.
I lost myself for a while… But don’t worry, because I refound myself, and it turned out okay in the end.
I stopped being friends with people who didn’t know a single thing about who I really am.
I started listening to that not-so-silly thing called my heart more than my head.
I was hugely satisfied by my ability to open up to people during the tough times. It wasn’t pretty, but it was something that I needed to do and I have had a lot of trust issues in the past, but I’m (slowly) overcoming them.
And frustrated by allowing myself to be mad/angry/sad/confused/lost for longer than I should have allowed myself.
I am so embarrassed that I collapsed at your doorstep that one very horrible night….
Once again, I called someone some not-nice names behind their back, and while they deserved them at the time, I should have been the bigger person.
Once again, I did not let someone know everything.
The biggest physical difference between me last December and this December is I shrunk…. I’m tell you, it’s true!
The biggest psychological difference between me last December and this December is how I handle situations. I try to assess them (still too much at times) but I’m better at bringing the subject up.
I loved spending time resting my head on a certain individual’s shoulder.
Why did I spend even two minutes thinking that I could have changed your mind?
I should have spent more time out and about and causing crazy fun trouble.
I regret those times when I wanted to slash a certain individual’s name.
I will never regret drawing someone a picture even though I never gave it to them.
I sang and danced obnoxiously while driving way too much.
I didn't go out to eat enough.
YOU drove me crazy.
Was the drama crazier than ever last year? Or was it me?
The most relaxing place I went was that summer night at the park when we were on the swings.
I feel so stupid when I actually tell you what I’m thinking about.
Why did I start talking to that one person again? Because, let’s face it, it’s going to blow up in my face.. again.
The best thing I did for someone else was tell them I was happy for them… even though it was a lie.
The best thing I did for myself was let go of two ugly situations. Now I admit that if you were to bring either of those situations up, I could rant and rave, but I can now do so with a clear mind, because I’ve forgiven those people.
The best thing someone did for me was let me cry when he needed to cry just as much as I did.
The one thing I'd like to do again, but do it better, is homecoming. I mean, it was already a blast, and it couldn’t have gotten much better (though Mike could have been on me less and I would have been fine with that), but I would have tried to convince that one kid to come along with me.
I lost myself for a while… But don’t worry, because I refound myself, and it turned out okay in the end.
I stopped being friends with people who didn’t know a single thing about who I really am.
I started listening to that not-so-silly thing called my heart more than my head.
I was hugely satisfied by my ability to open up to people during the tough times. It wasn’t pretty, but it was something that I needed to do and I have had a lot of trust issues in the past, but I’m (slowly) overcoming them.
And frustrated by allowing myself to be mad/angry/sad/confused/lost for longer than I should have allowed myself.
I am so embarrassed that I collapsed at your doorstep that one very horrible night….
Once again, I called someone some not-nice names behind their back, and while they deserved them at the time, I should have been the bigger person.
Once again, I did not let someone know everything.
The biggest physical difference between me last December and this December is I shrunk…. I’m tell you, it’s true!
The biggest psychological difference between me last December and this December is how I handle situations. I try to assess them (still too much at times) but I’m better at bringing the subject up.
I loved spending time resting my head on a certain individual’s shoulder.
Why did I spend even two minutes thinking that I could have changed your mind?
I should have spent more time out and about and causing crazy fun trouble.
I regret those times when I wanted to slash a certain individual’s name.
I will never regret drawing someone a picture even though I never gave it to them.
I sang and danced obnoxiously while driving way too much.
I didn't go out to eat enough.
YOU drove me crazy.
Was the drama crazier than ever last year? Or was it me?
The most relaxing place I went was that summer night at the park when we were on the swings.
I feel so stupid when I actually tell you what I’m thinking about.
Why did I start talking to that one person again? Because, let’s face it, it’s going to blow up in my face.. again.
The best thing I did for someone else was tell them I was happy for them… even though it was a lie.
The best thing I did for myself was let go of two ugly situations. Now I admit that if you were to bring either of those situations up, I could rant and rave, but I can now do so with a clear mind, because I’ve forgiven those people.
The best thing someone did for me was let me cry when he needed to cry just as much as I did.
The one thing I'd like to do again, but do it better, is homecoming. I mean, it was already a blast, and it couldn’t have gotten much better (though Mike could have been on me less and I would have been fine with that), but I would have tried to convince that one kid to come along with me.
You're awesome Vici =p
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