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Thinking about you after 2am is inappropriate. 1am in debatable. 12am and earlier is completely acceptable.

Two years ago, I went from school straight to work. Currently, I'm going from school straight to work, more or less. That is the connection I made and made me think about the question I asked you last night. Of course, when you asked me, "Why are you thinking of that?" I probably should have explained this reason, not given you the answer that I did. But, of course, what's done is done. And even though you probably think I'm a little crazy, well, there might be some truth behind that too.

I am inclined to say no, I am not ready for classes to be starting. What was I thinking planning all of my classes on the same day? (Tuesdays and Thursdays.) Better yet, what was I thinking planning my during-the-week work schedule for Tuesdays and Thursdays, too? Oh yes, I vaguely recall thinking that two thirteen hour days would be better than driving to campus every day of the week for only a couple of hours. I mean, I guess it really isn't that bad if you think about it..... And hey, on the upside, I'm already almost half way done with my online course first week assignment. Maybe I can do this.

The pill made me do it! It's interesting, but I guess I wouldn't be all that surprised.

1 week..... Until classes start. 1 month..... Until my birthday. 4.5 months..... Until "D Day". ?.... Until THE day.

Eventually, like everything else, they wither away to nothing.

I'm sorry for jumping you in the manner I did the other day. Signed Sincerely, Me P.S. Actually, I'm not sorry. I was really excited to see you ;-)

...And for all the wrong reasons, too. I worked, quite possibly, my last Wednesday at work yesterday. It almost makes me sad, remembering all the good Wednesdays from Christmas Past. Never again... And, sure, I'm probably exaggerating, okay, I know I'm exaggerating, but it was still a bittersweet good-bye, and those are the worse.

...According to the calendar on my door, it's June 13th.

I think it's human nature to want to be needed. Just to know that someone wants you around, enjoys your company, and, not to mention, it's a nice feeling, knowing that you're wanted. We all just want to be wanted, and I don't think that's necessarily a bad thing. I guess it's just finding someone who wants you as much as you want them... That, is the challenge.