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To clarify if I haven't gotten news to you yet: There was an even that happened approximately four weeks ago that has resolved itself in its entirely. Please, for my own sake, if you love me, can we pretend (to the best of our extent) that it never happened? Thank you. P.S. I can answer any questions that are bound to come from this in "private".

Everyone who knew said 'No, don't do that again.' But I did do it again. And I don't regret it. I mean, yes, sometimes, I'm scared to death. But maybe this is all some sort of life long lesson that I just haven't gotten yet. ....Or maybe I have.

Make it a Post Secret!

And this retched month will turn into a (hopefully) much better one. Thank Goodness!

My friends tend to think I'm crazy when I say I'd pick winter over summer nine times out of ten, but on nights like this I want to tell them to look outside and try to convince me otherwise.

It's approximately two weeks into Lent, and while I have been acting on my deed that I promised to do this season, I must admit that it is not going as well as it could be. Now, I am aware that's a part of the tradition, right? It's suppose to be a struggle, but it's also meant to turn out for your positive in the end. But my positive... it seems a little too far off, and, well, there are only twenty-four days left. A little help? Signed Sincerely, me.

I don't think people fall out of love. And there are several reasons why that scares the crap out of me.

Movies I want to see (Theater): -Untraceable -Definitely, Maybe -Fool's Gold -Jumper -Vantage Point Movies I want to see (Rentable) -No Reservations -The Assassination of Jesse James by the Coward Robert Ford -Martian Child Please note, if we see any of these movies together, you will probably be my favorite person for a week :-)

Where do you see yourself in five years? That is the question that Ryan asked me the other day in class. My response? I turned to him and replied with the utmost honesty: I have no idea . It scared me a little, that I realized I really don't have any clue anymore. If you would have asked me two months ago, even two weeks ago, I could have told you. "This and this, and I want to do this, and I'm going to have this, and I'm going to do this, and this is how it's all going to work out." Now though? No clue. I mean, yea, sure I have my wishes, I have my plans, but where does that get me? Nowhere. Yes, I can plan it all out, but what happens if it doesn't work out that way? I don't exactly have a back up plan. I certainly don't want to be in school for the rest of my life, trying to figure it out. And realistically, I still want those things I wanted two months ago, two weeks ago, but things have changed. So, Dear Mr. Lewis University Staff Memb

I had this brilliant blog planned out for when I got home from work tonight. It was going to be deep and thoughtful and wonderous and, well, EVERYTHING! But February had to go and ruin it for me. The stupid rain/snow/ice froze my car doors when I got out of work. Ridiculous.

Lent begins today. Oh, that crazy 40 day festivity of yours. And to be perfectly honest, I haven't decided what I'm going to give up or what I'm going to do for the common good of humanity. And to be perfectly honest again, and probably a little selfish and unreasonable and so on, I feel like I've already given a lot up, so why do I have to add to the list? Signed Sincerely, me

I don't like you. In case I haven't made that apparently clear in previous times, I am pretty sure that you stink pretty bad. You haven't been very nice to me in the past - -only with the possible exception of last year, but still, if you figure only once in nearly twenty years, you have a crappy track record. I think that you owe me big time, so you can start anytime you like. Signed Sincerely, me

There's so much to say. So many words, whether they be nice ones or not-so-nice ones. But there's just so much.... I don't even know if there's a point in writing them down.

Is there anything you have to tell me? and Do you love me? Are fair game questions 24/7.

It's started with a snow day. I don't know if that means this month is going to be better or worse than usual.