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I don't like them. I don't like anything about them. I don't live giving them, and I most certainly do not like receiving them. Never once have I had even a remotely good, even "okay", experience with them. Not any of the ones that I have received or the couple that I have given turned out well, and I honestly believe that I made the wrong decision in every single one of those cases. I don't like them. So, why am I telling you this? Because I know, I know that they are not fair, and I am truly sorry for that. And I am not going to make you choose anytime soon, but eventually, eventually, if things "work out", then you will have to choose one or the other.

My head feels like it's going to explode!!!!!

But if you don't feel anything when you hear this song, then you don't have a heart.

I'm not famous today. Maybe next week.

grand (adj) impressive in size, magnificent or splendid gesture (n) any action, courtesy, communication, &c., intended for effect therefore (broadly placed) grand gesture (n) an impressive action To be perfectly blunt, I'm missing my grand gestures. I haven't gotten many during my life, probably because of the amount of "risk" involved, but there are some things that are simply shoe ins. I like to know that I've been missed/thought about/&c (who doesn't?) I mean, I'm not necessarily talking John Cusack in Say Anything grand (though I admit that I would give you a crazy running jump hug and a kiss of some sort if you ever did that), it doesn't have to be like that, it's just... something, I don't know. Even a little one. Just let me know, okay?

He hasn't even been baking that long, but it smells wonderful in this house. I love it.

I can't fix it if you don't give me the chance. So suck it up for a bit, and let me try to correct it.

Finally! I know it's only been maybe about a year or so since the last novel came out, but I've been dying to know how the series is going to end. Will Edward give Bella her wish? More importantly, what's going to happen if he doesn't? (I don't like to think along that path.) Anyway, they say it's a " dazzling grand finale ", so I'm anticipating its release even more. Can't wait!

So I was snooping around today (not even really snooping, I was actually looking for something and thought that this may be a plausible place to find this object I was looking for, but then I found something else that caught my eye, and I'm one of those people who have to feed their curiosity whether it ends good or bad, but that's another story that's getting anyway from my point, if I even have one). Anyway, during this time I found something that shouldn't have surprised me, but it did. It was amazing, this other thing I found, and even though there are some things we just know, things that are facts, things that we know and accept and even utilize our knowledge of this every once in a while, it was still amazing. It made the little known fact even more apparent, and all I have to say is wow, that's amazing.

Nothing too fabulous up. This just means I should work on my post card.

Why aren't new secrets up yet?

The sound quality is better on this video than the one with Tyler Hilton and Bethany Joy Lenz actually singing... but I guess this video isn't too bad either.

My paranoia's breaking though. I had an epiphany on my way home from school today. I thought: " Yes, that's it! It has to be it! The only explanation! " Yea, not so much. No documented evidence. None in my hands, anyway. And it could possibly all be fixed with one simple phone call, text, message, whatever. And what would it read? Can I borrow your year book ? Sad and true. I'm officially paranoid.

I really just wanted the picture to be here, but when I looked at it today, it wasn't. Lame! So click the link instead and check out the secret of the week .

Yea, I think I'm having one. Not cool.

Disclaimer: Possibly not for those who are currently made teary-eyed easily. About a year ago I came to a small list of things (people) who I deemed required to be around for my wedding. They are as follows: (1) My dad. Of course, it's every girl's wish, maybe even need, for her dad to walk her down the aisle. It's a definite requirement for me. (2) My grandma. Come on, she's my grandma, and she's still cool as heck. I want her to see me there all dolled up. (3) My great aunts and uncle. It's true, I don't seem them often, but it's the principle. They have so much life experience and I know that they've been to so many weddings during their lifetime, but I wanted them to come to mine . And yes, I knew that they were old seven years ago, but that doesn't mean that it doesn't hurt a little when the reality checks keep coming in that this one may not happen.

Is this true?