Blank Sheet of Paper

I wrote in my journal tonight. Just now. It's been a long time. A very, very long time. I'm quite proud of myself. Putting my thoughts down on paper was a nice change. And sure, it may have been a sting of vulgarities, but that's completely besides the point.

I've decided that I'm going to be a Change Maker this year for Eric & Kathy's 36 hour radiothon for Children's Memorial Hospital . Would you like to be one with me? If you check out the second link, you'll learn that the radiothon isn't until early September, but why wait? It's for a great cause, and if our own little ones haven't had a few scares, we certain know someone who has. So, instead of just tossing our change into a container, why not do something else with it that will make us a part of something bigger?

Two very different, yet never fading memories. I don't know what brought them to mind tonight, but I know I won't be able to sleep until I write them down. June 2006, Friday: In front of my house, against your dad's truck. We were making small talk about something, though what I don't quite remember. Maybe the game we just watched, or maybe pretending we weren't going to see one another the next night. It had been a handful of days already, and it had almost happened so many times before, but never all the way. I had just glanced up at something in they sky, maybe a plane overhead or just a star to make my wish, and when I looked back you had already pulled me closer. You kissed me for the first time in the moment after that. And I remember, after you left, going inside and leaning against my front door in a daze, letting it hold me up just like it happens in the movies after something like that happens. ....It may have been the first time I fell in love wit...

Don't worry, I do.

Because in my head, I actually know that 25,000 x 4 =100,000. But instead, I like to pretend that it equals 250,000. Oh-well.

How much do I dish out for school a year? Huh? Huh? Do you know? $22,000.00 - -that's how much. I dish out nearly a quarter of a million, quarter of a million , dollars a year, and what does the government give me back for that sweet ass payment? $294.00 Suck ass.