Blank Sheet of Paper

I really wish you would have answered your phone.

I deleted you from my life yesterday. I took your numbers down off the board, made them into my secret, and mailed them in. I even deleted your name from my phone. Why, exactly I did these things, I couldn't tell you. Maybe I thought it was just time to move on. Maybe I was tired of waiting for the phone call that never came. And yet, that phone call came today. It always seems to come, right when I've given up on you. "What? You don't say bye anymore when you leave?" "What? You can't pick up a phone every now and again?" That's whatI should have replied with, but instead I went back in, and we ended up talking for probably twenty minutes. Yeah, I know, I shouldn't have stuck around that long, but what's done is done, and you've managed to sneak your way back into my life, yet again, because you're you, and you never run out of chances with me. *sigh* We made plans, you and I, but I'm not getting my hopes up. I don't think...

5. Anything that sounds horrendous 4. Donna 3. Kimberly 2. Tiffany 1. Ashley

That I cannot WAIT until this movie comes out!?!

I think that at some point during my youth that I managed to convince myself that when I turned twenty my life would somehow become a little easier, less drama involved. And now, I'm actually laughing as I type that. I don't have that safety net anymore, the last resort excuse that, I'm a teenager, I'm suppose to be naive and (for lack of a better word) stupid. Poof! Gone! Now I actually have to think of why I do some of the things I do and what to do about this silly thing called the future. Easier? Less drama? Yes, I'm still laughing.

Fuck You.