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I got the exact response I wanted. ....But now what do I do?

Where do you see yourself in five years? That is the question that Ryan asked me the other day in class. My response? I turned to him and replied with the utmost honesty: I have no idea . It scared me a little, that I realized I really don't have any clue anymore. If you would have asked me two months ago, even two weeks ago, I could have told you. "This and this, and I want to do this, and I'm going to have this, and I'm going to do this, and this is how it's all going to work out." Now though? No clue. I mean, yea, sure I have my wishes, I have my plans, but where does that get me? Nowhere. Yes, I can plan it all out, but what happens if it doesn't work out that way? I don't exactly have a back up plan. I certainly don't want to be in school for the rest of my life, trying to figure it out. And realistically, I still want those things I wanted two months ago, two weeks ago, but things have changed. So, Dear Mr. Lewis University Staff Memb...

(11) How do you know you won't change your mind? (12) Do you believe in second chances? ...Do you believe you should have got one? (13) Are you jealous of Jess ? (14) Why did you choose to throw away three years instead of three months? (15) Do you honestly think none of it's my fault?

(6) Back in October, if she and I were both tied to train tracks and the train was headed for us, who would you save if you could only save one? (7) Where will you be when you're older? (8) What's one family tradition you don't want to ever get rid of and will change your plans for the sole purpose of continuing it? (9) Why didn't you call me all those nights you supposedly laid in bed, wishing that you could talk to me? (10) How soon is too soon?

(1) Could you tell me just one more time what happened with you two? ...Just one more time, I promise. (2) How do you know if you love someone/something? (3) What do you think about before you go to sleep? (4) You trust me, don't you? ...Even if you don't trust the people who I hang out with? (5) What's one of your secrets? (6) (7) (8) (9) (10) (11) (12) (13) (14) (15) (16) (17) (18) (19) (20) To Be Continued...